Thursday, June 11, 2009

The Dream...or A Different Reality...

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I open my eyes and am faced with the blinding sunlight making me flinch. Slowly adjusting the bright surroundings I find myself on some kind of roof. I look around and find it somewhat familiar. "I've been here before..." I think aloud. Looking out there are other buildings around. They are the four storeyed buildings and similar to the one i'm standing on, similar to the one i used to live when i was younger as i realized...

The streets are empty and all the windows i can see from up here are shuttered. Theres absolute silence and a sense of desolation. Suddenly i am a bit scared and panic grips my heart. I search all around but find no vehicles, no vendors, no one... its as if i'm standing alone here... as if the world is standing still.

A sense of foreboding fills my heart as i find a shadow in the sky a loong distance away. It cant be a cloud... there is not a single cloud in the sky... and its soo dark and moving fast... but one thing i can be sure of, is its size... It was big...

As it came closer (still a few miles away) i can already make out that its somekind of bird, it looked like an eagle... what rubbish... an eagle can't be that big... i mean nothing can be that big... it was larger than some of the largest jets in the world and it was flying... somehow i found it a bit ridicuous... and instead of panicking i was thinking about the physics involved in its flight.

It didn't last long. As it came closer into the sub-urban region, the sea of buildings... i finally realized how impossibly humungous it looked. and it was flying soo gracefully, diving one moment and floating in the currents the next... it was captivating. And i still had no name for this creature. (I had read books and seen many movies and i can say that it did not look like a dragon). The closest i could come to a name was "eagle..???" It then let out a roar... thats the only thing one could call it. I had to clap my hands to my ears. And it dived and banked in the air... too low... every flap of its wings the tips touched some of the roofs and top floors were crumbling with the impact. and the creature never noticed.

It was now circling around here and there, letting out a roar every few minutes, crashing any buildings where its wings touched, like they were toys it doesnt notice while on its stately flight. And surprisingly, I'm just standing there too fascinated by the creature, its majestic flight, too stunned to move, by the sheer impossibility of it all... and most importantly with not a bit of fear in me.

It seemed to be avoiding the build i was standing on.. not avoiding really just that it hadnt come this way... and bit by bit it was moving further... and in my heart i was getting sadder, as if i should be there with it, that a part of me is going away with it and i would never be complete again... I wanted to call out to it, but for all practical purposes i had even forgotten speech itself. I was shouting in my heart... "Stop... Turn back... take me with you..." I dont know if it really did hear me or if i really was shouting... or if it was mere coincidence... but the creature turned its head to look directly at me... i was more excited than i ever was in my whole life... and at the same time more afraid than i ever thought fear could be...

I was filled with these conflicting emotions when the majestic creature turned around slowly, dipped lower so that its head and eyes were level with me... i did not know if it was going to crush me with the buildings or just eat me with a snap or its beak... it seemed capable of doing both... It was coming directly at me with incredible speed.. and not for one moment did the eye contact break... and then just when it was about to crash, it turned.. one of its wings actually hitting the building in the middle. The whole thing was just crumbling around me when i snapped back to reality (if any of this could be called reality) and just jumped... hoping i would land somewhere safe... i found on the base of the creature's wing and climbed on further ahead.

As if i called out, the creature looked back at me once and then just started flying up completely ignoring me, as if i was just another straw stuck in its feathers... it started getting higher and higher.. above the clouds... the sunlight was blinding me... and the only thing i could really see was a vast bright nothing and a pair of wings flapping beside me... the height had barely breathable air... and i was feeling lightheaded with all that had happened... the last thing i could really remember was the look of the creature.. which i have somehow started to think of as an eagle... as it looked back at me once more while floating from one warm air current to the next.

The scene which is etched forever into my mind... and with all the vivid details and colors... The bright blue ocean below me... An ocean with no ending... The bright red sun above me... and what i could only call as white rarefied mist or clouds floating along in the air at a height no man might have gone without the aid of machines, And the impossible creature on which i am sitting... the wings whose span i could not fathom, flapping beside me... and the majestic roar ringing in my ears.

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P.S. As i'm used to this column of my blog, i think i should mention here that even if the details i mentioned here seem a bit extrapolated... i do really still remember every small detail of what is a dream i've seen. And i just have to close my eyes to see the scene again. As you might have gathered from this blog, i really do watch very detailed dreams and most of the time i remember them very well. I have a few other to share with you, which even though seen a few years back, i can remember them even now, and probably would do so...

Until the next dream,
Take care.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

The post i scrapped started with "Looking Back".. so imagine.

woah... just had a "senti" attack... i started writing and went deep into emotional turmoil and sentimental drama... and it was further depressing me.. with its ever going cycle...

so so.. as i was saying in my previous post, i moved to hyd. presently i'm soo bored that i've even logged on here for the second day. See that really says something. OK... the whatever script starts now... i'm so bored that i signed up in face book... an answered some 20-25 quizzes in 1 day... that was last week... then i chatted up with all my frnds from iit who i had lost contact with... (took 2 days.)

In between i called up many others just bcoz i was bored... (...)

And now i'm writing a blog with no actual info content. I mean bored can a person really get. And these days i'm geting some pretty dangerous ideas... As they say... "An idle mind is a devil's playground" (whoever "they" are...)

So i'm just a bit scared that i'd do something which i shdnt do just bcoz i cd do it...

Oh.. and in between all this i fell in love... (once again..!!!???) For heavens sake... i just saw her for like 15 seconds... (and to clarify to some ppl.. no she's not from my dream or some fictional character... she's real) so anyway what shd one do...

Well... not much really... so the matter is over i guess... will tell u all the next time i fall in love :P

And during all the treks across the internet i found a good site with many old classic anime songs... some of my favourites... from Fruit basket, FMP, School Rumble, Code Geass etc...They trigger all the fond moments of those animes whenever i hear them again... i'm currently listening to them.

So i guess thats it.
Cya.

P.S. i cd have written this in the body..but..... well so i meant to say that if i really do continue like this writing a blog every day.. it will be like this one.. boring and filled with "nothing".. so next time i really have something.. then i will put something... untill then tk cr.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

The last 15 months.

Hi all and none...

Its been a year and 4 months... since i even logged on here. And looking back, 6 posts in 2007, 1 in 2008, I'm not really surprised (with myself that is). And I'm so bored, i was reading my own blogs for a few minutes. Well even the thought of logging in here was bcoz i was bored and exhausted many other options which i cd think of. Well there's not much u can do to enjoy while in a big corporate office with everyone around you working...

And now u ask why am i not working? Simple. I'm not assigned any work... YET.

Well a short summary.
  • April 2008 - End sems of Final Year and all that goes with it.
  • May 2008 - All the project thingies and completion of formalities.
  • June 2008 - I recieve my offer letter (Sasken, Bangalore.) and joining date is 1st December
  • July 2008 - Convocation.
  • August 2008 - A trip to Hyderabad for my elder bro's marriage. (Lost my cell phone.)
  • October 2008 - Recession at its peak. (I think.)
  • November 2008 - I recieve a mail that joining is delayed till April 6th 2009.
  • December 2008 - Attended another bro's marriage at Vadodara, Gujarat.
  • January 2009 - Joined NIIT for some timepass classes. (not really time pass.. had to pay a lot.)
  • February 2009 - Recieved another mail from Sasken :( Joining Delayed indefinitely. Further info in October 2009.
  • March 2009 - Posted resumes online.
  • April 2009 - Written tests and interview for IBM.
  • 18th May 2009 - Joined ISL IBM Hyderabad.

So thats a small (?) summary of life since i last posted here. Well there were a large amount of small details which i havent written here and i dont really think i can considering the tme period.

So this time i will try to be a bit more regular. (I think i said this last time too...).

And ya. Bye.

P.S. There's no Post Script this time. And all my earlier posts have them :(